“The king’s heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord; he turns it wherever he will. Every way of a man is right in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the heart.

Since I was king of my own life (or so, I foolishly thought) before I bowed my knee and became a son of the king, I could never see the hand or hear the voice, or recognize the power of the one who had made me in the first place.

I was choosing my way!

I was building my life!

I would find success!

I would be happy!

I learned on that day in 1978 that I could not fix what was missing in me. Happiness was a vapor and had no power to bring meaning to a life that was empty.

I had made all the arguments toward why I was perfectly capable to rule my own life, and I had been given the opportunity to try.

I mounted my horse, and joined the battle of life, before I finally realized that I was helpless, and losing the battle.

And, then, when I surrendered to the true King, I found what I had been seeking all along.

A rest, a peace, a love that would not die.

And a victory over my true enemy.

No wisdom, no understanding, no counsel can avail against the Lord. The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but the victory belongs to the Lord.”

Proverbs 21:1-2, 30-31 ESV


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